A vistor

In all three years of being here in Rexburg, I have never had any of my little brothers come see me. I actually entertained Connor this weekend and we had a blast! I am so grateful for Connor and think he is super awesome and loved watching him explore and experience a little bit of college. here are a few pictures! 

big kid, little kid 

going going

gone.. or stuck hahaha

more big kids will be little kids

love you connor!

-hayley

#200!!!

In case you are all wondering I figured out that this is post 200 today. Wow, have I been here awhile. Well here is what I have been up to in a few pictures!!

 school

 being really sick and feeling yucky

 going to utah

 taking lots of pictures for school

 stopping in here finally

 spending loads of time with him

 reading for school and pleasure

 drives

 homework

 goofing around

 loving learning to use a camera

 more homework

 more homework

 homework

 homework

 homework

homework 

 fashion shows

 bannack ghost town montana

 more bannack

more bannack 

more bannack 

 living behind a camera

unlocking my heart and this door

 designing

love this!!

more floral
that's good for now:)

A push

I have been in the dumps for sometime now and you would be surprised the toll it has taken on my self 

confidence and my ability to get dressed feel and get moving each day. I wish I could explain how awful it feels to not be in control of my body but I can't and I have to stop worrying, complaining and thinking about it. this will not define my everyday.  Get up and moving so tomorrow watch out. 

-hayley

days 10,11,12 and the end of the story

Yep I dont have time in my life to finish this Project, but I don't. So here is to hoping I can finish it some other time.
-Hayley

Day 8, 9

I feel like a blog project failure, mostly because I have combined days on this project. But hey, Life goes on.

The Bad:

Thinking that smacking that girl who can not and will not shut her mouth would be a really good idea
Skipping class to do more homework then going to class would have allowed
Saying to someone, "wow, she really chunked..... "
Acknowledng the fact that the place I go to school will not be the same place in the next year
Wanting so badly to quit school when I have two semesters left
knowing I should be sleeping, but I cant sleep through pain
wanting to run out of my room and yell really loudly shut up. please and thank you
making it to the top of the stairs huff and puff and then realize that I only went 20ft since the last stop.
hands freezing in class this morning
doctor not calling me back
classes seem to drag on and on
soaked my shoes
got cute new shirt dirty
elbows still not healthy from blood samples.

The Good:
Actually getting a ton of homework done
no really loads of it done
actually putting away a load of laundry on the day I did it
Calming this poor frantic girl when she couldn't find her boyfriend who showed up with flowers
Finding out that my sarcastic remarks aren't unkind which means I still get to use them
Having a beyond wonderful devotional and being spiritually uplifted.
doctor calling me back... finally
homework done
sleep
class homework class homework class
making dinner and forgetting it
my mom being awesome
carly being my model


thats all I can think of....

-hayley

Day 7

The Bad:
Messy room and left with out my bed made
kade left to go back to work
Seeing a girl on campus I know but don't know how or what her name is and she says," hey hayley how are you!" "oh hey! how are you?" ( cleverly not using her name... :D)
the wifi went down on campus
the lovely freezing oh my hands while I walked around the gardens in class
me thinking, "if I dont get out of here I might just sneak out"
the drowsiness of my body after taking said medication.
forgetting the main course of my lunch.
walking home with dirt across my legs.... and getting hit on by some nastiness
someone telling me they didn't like my shirt
oh and the 3 hours of looking at trees and diagnosing their problems....
lastly, the rain.

The Good:
went to all my classes and got all my homework done
brought my lunch
cleaned my room
did my laundry
talked to my little brothers
FHE
went to bed early
making lunch for the next day
and personal favorite carmel apples that I didn't get to eat.
not saying something rude back every time a specific person opened their mouth ALL DAY LONG

so not a lot of opportunities to be kind or rude since I wasn't really involved with interacting with people all day.
-hayley

day 3, 4, 5, 6

Explanation of not posting these days:  Doctors appointments after doctors appointments after school after school after hanging with Kade and more and more Kade, which is a rare opportunity these days. soo sorry But here they are condensed into all their greatness.

The bad:

The snow.
more snow.
Me wanting to throw a tantrum fit because the air "somehow" keeps getting turned down to 70!!! and its nobody's fault.  So I "somehow" turned it up to 80 and left it there for an hour. Then it "somehow"returned to the right temperature of 72.
Hearing a neighbor say, "Wow, I am kinda of a huge flirt and hurt other girls feelings sometimes, that makes me a bad person." Me completely agreeing in my head, knowing the "some girls" she was referring to are my roommates.
The nurse poking my arm with a larger than average needle and saying," woops wrong size needle. Will you hold this I have to start all over."
Waiting in the doctors office for two hours and not getting anything and having to come back the next morning.
going back to the doctors and having more blood taken pills administered and still no real answers. perfect.
The freezing temperatures at the farmers market.
Me wanting to say to this lady, " didn't someone ever tell you wearing the rainbow isn't really a good idea?" Then thinking about my favorite line from hairspray.. "well you'll stop traffic!"
the creeper zombie walk down main street.. need I say more?


The Good:
Kade= four somewhat blissful days in rexburg
Me correcting my self 32 times in my head and not once on sunday!
curing the drama in my apartment.
doing dishes
did my first potato
cooking three night in a row and enjoying every blissful bite
baked potato soup
corn chowder
yummy!
the sunshine
taking tons of pictures for class
drives on gorgeous days
Frank Sinatra in the morning
spending more time with kade
watching thor
and back to another busy week of school.


and re posting another tonight about how I did today!
-hayley

Fall is here!

Day 2

 Okay today oddly was harder than yesterday....

I think it may be the weather....


The Bad:

• When person in surrounding area say," why do I feel stupid?" and I, not paying attention, say out loud... quietly thank heavens, "because you are."
• Creeper walked me home from class today, I told him Carly was my sister and she was married so he would give up on walking me home. Then, was careful to ignore the rest of his awkward questions.
• When walking past a girl wearing a white shirt leaving her apartment, knowing that it was hailing, and conveniently says to me, "ooopps... no umberella!" and winks at me... poor thing,  little does she know half the men on campus are gonna give her the wrong attention and the other half are going to avoid looking at her at all costs. Me. wanting to say," did you want to throw on a hot pink bra under that see-through oops I mean white shirt of yours and even the girls uncomfortable?"
• My teacher in class today using improper english.... Me having my hand raise wanting to correct him then when called upon saying... oh I forgot.. because I didn't want to embarrass the poor guy
• being at the grocery store so intent on reading the sugar label , didn't happen to hear the 3 "excuse me's" before actually hearing" hey lady move! "and turing and saying in an annoyed tone "excuse me?" and seeing 6 different carts backed up down the aisle.... oh no..... and I was RUDE....

The Good:

• Giving this cute girl in my class the rest of my tea because I thought she was gonna freeze.
• Helping an older lady get up the stairs in the MC{those things are SOOO Steep!!}
• Giving another girl in my class my umbrella as we walked to class, she forget her jacket in her other class. 
• My mom calming my nerves on multiple subjects today. Love her.
• Carly being my pretend sister
• Heavenly Father blessing me with great people in life to help put smiles back on my face. 
• Recognizing the blessings from the Lord in my life. 
• Tomorrow is temple day!!
• Stopping my self ten times before commenting rudely on the actions of others. 

until tomorrow wish me luck!

-hayley

Day 1

So being "kind" in your mind is not as easy as it sounds.

The Bad...

• In the MC today with the{oh so polite super loud} 30 seconds about me Communication Department was putting on. Said girl said she had, "written four novels and was hoping to get published by.. wait for it a publishing company." I don't know if it was rude or not but my instant thought was, "duh! thats generally who does that kind of work..." 
• Next, the kid who pointed out to me that, I did not move to the middle of the row as instructed 35 mins before devotional started. My reaction: to smile curtly and not move. When pushed again I thought really? calm down, or I will help you to find someone else who needs your nagging. 
• Again, the joy who took my parking spot when i was already late for class. Thank you sweetheart for being so considerate of the people around who actually waited for that spot. 

The Good....

• The chance I had to compliment this girl on her completely adore outfit,  and she almost teared up. 
• The great conversation with my doctor allowing her a few minutes to relax during her busy day. 
• Taylor, my FHE brother giving Carly and I ride home from devotional.
• My little brother calling because he is super excited about the iphone being on sprint{ME TOO!!}
• me not saying anything to lovely girl in hopes she grows up just a little to let go of her drama
• My peaceful dinner, by myself reading a book and being polite to the people interrupting the alone-ness.
• The many doors opened for me all day, and the door I opened in returned. 
• Boy carrying umbrella for a girl with lots in her hands.

overall, not so great on my side, can do A LOT better, I only mentioned a few things but Being kind means maybe no simple sarcastic remarks? I am not sure how I feel about that one... love me some sarcasm!

-until next time

hayley

A project.

So I have decided to chose a project of sorts, what you may ask? Good question. I have put a lot of thought into this project.
I have spent many months deciding what I could do to give my everyday a little purpose.

Even though I completely loved Julie and Julia, cooking unfortunately is not something I honestly have time for though I truly enjoy food. Most people do but, I really love to eat. Not in the its our natural human desire to eat, but rather I really love to eat to taste each individual flavor, the creation of the taste palette. I have thought to actually write a cookbook.

I also love fashion, I enjoy getting dressed each day and shopping... oh brother my mother and I are champion shoppers. Its a great personal hobby, and its a way I express myself. With that said, that's exactly why I wont use it for my project, because I don't  need motivation to do it and nor do I want to turn something I enjoy so much into a burden or force it upon all my readers to see all these pictures of myself each day in different clothes. Even though I enjoy fashion, I don't enjoy pictures of myself everywhere everyday. So what's my project your are probably wondering by now...

My project: to be kind 

 No laughing yet let me explain. 

I have had some interesting experiences these last few months.

I have taken a step back and tried watch how I think about and treat other people.

I simply decided to be even more sincere and kind 

{those two words are going to be synonymous for this project} 

I will use the blog to be brutally honest with each day and my interactions with people. 

Also, to keep my self accountable for  each day and a push to be better.

So the deadline,  because I am not super adventurous  I am going to try it for a month and  then report back and maybe  pick a new word. 

wish me luck!