So I must admit, I love being busy with things to do. It makes my life seem full.
Well, humorously I was wrong, oh so very wrong. Life as I have heard it stated, is for the truly brave. Well, well what is the life we talk about? WARNING!!!! my brain is a very dangerous place and if you continue to read please don't be alarmed if you cannot follow everything. This is purely something to think about.
Life as previously stated, is what the human race call of time on earth it is how those who are lost with no belief in he who created all things, describe the feelings they have to being a better person such as, I don't want to live my life wasted. Others, just use the word at funerals because the live for the moment not the life. i.e. she lived a wonderful life. Others ponder their exists in all its entirety, and splendor. These are the people who live healthy lives. They appreciate everything around them, but don't stand back like a fan at a nose bleed stadium watching his favorite MLB team lose, they play the game, they roll around in the grass, the dive for the ball so to speak.
when something emotionally disconcerting happens, a heartbreak, a death of a loved one, terminal illness, the real goal of the word life comes, death.
take a minute before you continue..
Each of us have had a "trail" "problem" a complication that seems to make us or break us. Has it ever occurred to anyone, that as we have these problems, we do what is most human about us, we think, we ponder we stress, we have natural human chemical reactions. Its the glorious part of our human bodies. the reactions the emotions, the blood pulsing through us everyday.
its my favorite part, to know that something will cause emotion, or our brains to work. we are human it is okay to fell confused. we may have gods but we are not gods ourselves. don't feel lost and that your bad person for being lost. your human!! rejoice in that revile in it!!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
peter pan
wouldn't it be nice if the world were as simple as peter pan.
but peter pan is not simple, which is why I love it so.
With all the underlying meaning one can simply understand that the choices we make when we are children affect who we become.
At one point in the movie Peter tells Wendy to leave and take her feelings with her.
Wendy states, "there is so much more to life Peter"
when Peter asks, "what."
she replies with,"I think it becomes clear when we grow up."
later in the movie Hook, states you cannot love if you dont grow up its part of the riddle.
what a horrible fate. I guess I never thought of it this way, its has been said by many that you haven't lived until you have loved. Is it true?
but peter pan is not simple, which is why I love it so.
With all the underlying meaning one can simply understand that the choices we make when we are children affect who we become.
At one point in the movie Peter tells Wendy to leave and take her feelings with her.
Wendy states, "there is so much more to life Peter"
when Peter asks, "what."
she replies with,"I think it becomes clear when we grow up."
later in the movie Hook, states you cannot love if you dont grow up its part of the riddle.
what a horrible fate. I guess I never thought of it this way, its has been said by many that you haven't lived until you have loved. Is it true?
Monday, June 15, 2009
thunderstorms
Thunderstorms. I have a deep undying love for thunderstorms. The booming surround sound of a clasp of thunder, that makes you want to grab on to the closest person and hold on out of fear it might shake you away. The fast pulse of rain beating on your face as you run to the car: knowing that running is probably making it worse. 30 seconds later hair soaking, pulse rushing, mind racing, lightning flashing, and then it happens. You make eye contact, the sound of your heart now measures that of the thunder. Your emotions are pouring out fast, if not faster than the rain around you, all you can see is his/her face, the water streaming down to his/her lips, his/her eyes searching yours trying to swim through his/her emotions into yours. The romantic setting dark gloomy skies that sends us into dark houses warm fires and blankets. as you sit there in the house dripping fresh clean rain water on to the dark hard wood floor; you smile out of breath, and slowly he/she pulls you in to kiss your lips and you lose all holds onto any connections in your brain to speak or think. Now you act on pure emotion.
Monday, June 8, 2009
Moments of life there are no words for
I have woken up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, pulse throbbing, and breath racing. I have also been in church heart burning, tears crawling towards the very brink of my eyelids, and arms covered in goose bumps.
I have often found that in the moments I feel like a third party bystander. My life is completely ruled by something else. I can see me and my reactions as if I am watching it from across the room.
There are also moments of love that there are no words for. When you look at someone and realize wow, where in the world would I be without you? How can I come to understanding without your opinion? Why in the world do you love me back?
Well, I want to give you an insight to my life in the last month, its personal and I am sure you have felt this way at times too.
I was sitting in church the other day. (right before I was supposed to give my talk) and I thought how could I be ashmed of something that gives peace unto the world, love to the lonely and virtue to the shy and the weak. Pretty big thought huh?
The next was a nightmare that I was rejected by someone I love dearly. Who if he hurt me I am not sure I could handle it. I had fallen asleep with phone in hand, which made it all the more real.
Then this morning I sat up feeling like a 100 bucks and now I feel Like 10.
Amazing how fast things change huh?
When you have mometns there are no words for write down the day and time and general jist it will help. Then dont dwell on it be greatful for the expirence and move on.
I have often found that in the moments I feel like a third party bystander. My life is completely ruled by something else. I can see me and my reactions as if I am watching it from across the room.
There are also moments of love that there are no words for. When you look at someone and realize wow, where in the world would I be without you? How can I come to understanding without your opinion? Why in the world do you love me back?
Well, I want to give you an insight to my life in the last month, its personal and I am sure you have felt this way at times too.
I was sitting in church the other day. (right before I was supposed to give my talk) and I thought how could I be ashmed of something that gives peace unto the world, love to the lonely and virtue to the shy and the weak. Pretty big thought huh?
The next was a nightmare that I was rejected by someone I love dearly. Who if he hurt me I am not sure I could handle it. I had fallen asleep with phone in hand, which made it all the more real.
Then this morning I sat up feeling like a 100 bucks and now I feel Like 10.
Amazing how fast things change huh?
When you have mometns there are no words for write down the day and time and general jist it will help. Then dont dwell on it be greatful for the expirence and move on.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Edward Cullen
I have noticed a trend, not to say I am exempt from it, for my boyfriend often sends me this salutation
with love always,
your Edward.
When in all reality his name is Scott. The trend is that Woman are looking for Mr. Perfect rather than Mr. Potential. Which puts more pressure on men of the world to be Mr. Perfect when in all reality they aren't and their simple mistakes cost them their heart in some cases. No thanks to Stephanie Meyers that is.
Now, if your a twilight fan, take a breather before you continue reading. I am a very avid reader, meaning I go through up to 10 books a week depending on the week, and I read anything to everything. Stephanie Meyers book have a huge amount of of what I like to call fluff. Things we actually don't really care to read about or she is trying so hard for these books to be good the have to much detail and not enough focus on the characters themselves. A great book is one that can put a picture in your head and keep it there while your making the progress through the book your mental image is able to form right along with it and once you have com to the glorious end of the book, you back through your mental image and very key point everywhere miraculous change and the turning points in the story are right there and easy to remember. Once into a Stephanie Meyer book, well if you are looking for what I just described LOOK ELSE WHERE. Her best writing is in her second book , the months simply turn with the pages and you get a feel for just how empty Bella really feels. No fluff no, extra unnecessary detail, no perfect Edward.
Now back to Edwards relationship with Bella, He seems over powering, mentally abusive and down right crazy at times... then in a split second he is kind and caring. Nowhere in any book is there his opinion, his thoughts, his peaceful calmness Bella describes. Ladies if you looking for Mr. Mysterious he is right in front of you his name? The male species.... If you are that incompetent enough to realize that you don't understand them, what the hell are you doing with your nose in a book trying to figure out Edward? He is someone Else's imaginative mysterious man, he is worse than the guy you went on a date with last night. You will never I repeat never really know what he is like, because he doesn't exist. Rob Patternson doesn't even know who Edward is.
Oh yes is dreamy and fabulous. But the man that can put his arms around you tell you that he loves you, hold your hair when your sick, wash your hair when you've had shoulder surgery, call you in the middle of his day at work just to tell you he loves you, gets your kids up to make you breakfast on mothers day, holds you and your baby and it renders everyone speechless at the bond between you, He ladies will be better than Edward on any day because after he tells you he loves you he will tell you he forgot something and needs you to bring it to him, he is the one who also forgets your first ultra-sound appointment and shows up late , he is the one who will set the grill and his shirt on fire while cooking and watching the big game. He is the one you will spend the rest of your life crying laughing and holding through life.
with love always,
your Edward.
When in all reality his name is Scott. The trend is that Woman are looking for Mr. Perfect rather than Mr. Potential. Which puts more pressure on men of the world to be Mr. Perfect when in all reality they aren't and their simple mistakes cost them their heart in some cases. No thanks to Stephanie Meyers that is.
Now, if your a twilight fan, take a breather before you continue reading. I am a very avid reader, meaning I go through up to 10 books a week depending on the week, and I read anything to everything. Stephanie Meyers book have a huge amount of of what I like to call fluff. Things we actually don't really care to read about or she is trying so hard for these books to be good the have to much detail and not enough focus on the characters themselves. A great book is one that can put a picture in your head and keep it there while your making the progress through the book your mental image is able to form right along with it and once you have com to the glorious end of the book, you back through your mental image and very key point everywhere miraculous change and the turning points in the story are right there and easy to remember. Once into a Stephanie Meyer book, well if you are looking for what I just described LOOK ELSE WHERE. Her best writing is in her second book , the months simply turn with the pages and you get a feel for just how empty Bella really feels. No fluff no, extra unnecessary detail, no perfect Edward.
Now back to Edwards relationship with Bella, He seems over powering, mentally abusive and down right crazy at times... then in a split second he is kind and caring. Nowhere in any book is there his opinion, his thoughts, his peaceful calmness Bella describes. Ladies if you looking for Mr. Mysterious he is right in front of you his name? The male species.... If you are that incompetent enough to realize that you don't understand them, what the hell are you doing with your nose in a book trying to figure out Edward? He is someone Else's imaginative mysterious man, he is worse than the guy you went on a date with last night. You will never I repeat never really know what he is like, because he doesn't exist. Rob Patternson doesn't even know who Edward is.
Oh yes is dreamy and fabulous. But the man that can put his arms around you tell you that he loves you, hold your hair when your sick, wash your hair when you've had shoulder surgery, call you in the middle of his day at work just to tell you he loves you, gets your kids up to make you breakfast on mothers day, holds you and your baby and it renders everyone speechless at the bond between you, He ladies will be better than Edward on any day because after he tells you he loves you he will tell you he forgot something and needs you to bring it to him, he is the one who also forgets your first ultra-sound appointment and shows up late , he is the one who will set the grill and his shirt on fire while cooking and watching the big game. He is the one you will spend the rest of your life crying laughing and holding through life.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Great lines from simple books
"and it had hurt her far more than it had hurt him." - Geoff Pinchingdale
" Some how he didnt think, I want to fling you down in the rose bushes and have my wicked way with you, would necessarily appease Hen's wrath." - Dorrington
"what do you want?" - Hen
"You Damnit!"- Miles Dorrington
"Sensation after Sensation assulted Amy"
"then suddenly she need his lips his arms"
"Good God, the idot"
" I don't know about you but I intend to spend the rest of the night as the good Lord intend. In slumber."
"How long have you been trying to bleach them?"
"Since I was twelve," Letty admitted, wrinkling her nose."
Geoff lightly kissed the offending appendage. "I like your freckles."
More to come later.....
" Some how he didnt think, I want to fling you down in the rose bushes and have my wicked way with you, would necessarily appease Hen's wrath." - Dorrington
"what do you want?" - Hen
"You Damnit!"- Miles Dorrington
"Sensation after Sensation assulted Amy"
"then suddenly she need his lips his arms"
"Good God, the idot"
" I don't know about you but I intend to spend the rest of the night as the good Lord intend. In slumber."
"How long have you been trying to bleach them?"
"Since I was twelve," Letty admitted, wrinkling her nose."
Geoff lightly kissed the offending appendage. "I like your freckles."
More to come later.....
to marry or not to marry? is that even the question to ask anymore?
In the world of relationships, the most important numbers to learn are: five to one. That is the ratio of positive interactions to negative ones that predicts whether a marriage will last or become one of the sad statistics of divorce.
It isn't that you can't argue with your spouse. But the couples that make it also manage to deliver positive emotional messages even when they don't see eye to eye.
"When the masters of marriage are talking about something important, they may be arguing, but they are also laughing and teasing and there are signs of affection because they have made emotional connections," says psychologist John Gottman, Ph.D., who has developed a mathematical model of relationships. "But a lot of people don't know how to connect or how to build a sense of humor, and this means that a lot of fighting that couples engage in is a failure to make emotional connections. We wouldn't have known this without the mathematical model."
The Masters of Marriage is Gottman's term for the long-term happily married. Gottman has been observing couples for decades and measuring their every blip—from blood pressure to facial grimace during their interactions.
All the observations have been quantified and turned into a kind of Dow Jones Industrial average for marital conversations. Gottman has found that marriages fall into the danger zone for divorce when the ratio of positive to negative interactions falls below five to one. Just by watching a videotape of a couple in the first few moments of a conversation about an area of marital contention, Gottman can predict with 94 percent accuracy which couples will later divorce.
In describing and quantifying the positive and negative forces on relationships, Gottman has found that a heavily weighted factor is whether one partner will accept influence from the other. A crucial predictor of divorce is a man's unwillingness to be influenced by his wife's suggestions or his blindness to her emotional expressions.
Along with a team of mathematicians, Gottman has developed what he calls bilinear influence functions. These describe a person's ability to affect his or her spouse's mood, a kind of emotional contagion. Good couples routinely influence each other's moods, in a positive direction.
Some couples, are "volatile"—they often unleash anger at one another but they offset that anger with even larger doses of warm feelings. Despite the volatility, such couples tend to be stable and successful. They not only influence each other with anger but also with affection.
Another critical dimension is the attempt to turn a difficult conversation in a positive direction—what Gottman calls repair attempts. These typically include jokes, soothing comments or changing the subject when things are too hot. Some couples, on the other hand, are skilled at "damping" conversations—they add more negative fuel to the fire. They may make hurtful comments even when their partner is clearly trying to be positive.
In the mathematics of marriage, certain expressions of emotion carry a disproportionate amount of emotional weight. Expressions of contempt, Gottman has found, register at -4. Displays of disgust each count for three points in the negative column. Whining comes in at –1. On the other hand, a display of affection—a smile of sympathy, a touch—registers 4 on the plus side.
The good news is that you don't have to be a math whiz to have a happy marriage, and there's no one right answer. Every couple is free to write their own positive equation.
It isn't that you can't argue with your spouse. But the couples that make it also manage to deliver positive emotional messages even when they don't see eye to eye.
"When the masters of marriage are talking about something important, they may be arguing, but they are also laughing and teasing and there are signs of affection because they have made emotional connections," says psychologist John Gottman, Ph.D., who has developed a mathematical model of relationships. "But a lot of people don't know how to connect or how to build a sense of humor, and this means that a lot of fighting that couples engage in is a failure to make emotional connections. We wouldn't have known this without the mathematical model."
The Masters of Marriage is Gottman's term for the long-term happily married. Gottman has been observing couples for decades and measuring their every blip—from blood pressure to facial grimace during their interactions.
All the observations have been quantified and turned into a kind of Dow Jones Industrial average for marital conversations. Gottman has found that marriages fall into the danger zone for divorce when the ratio of positive to negative interactions falls below five to one. Just by watching a videotape of a couple in the first few moments of a conversation about an area of marital contention, Gottman can predict with 94 percent accuracy which couples will later divorce.
In describing and quantifying the positive and negative forces on relationships, Gottman has found that a heavily weighted factor is whether one partner will accept influence from the other. A crucial predictor of divorce is a man's unwillingness to be influenced by his wife's suggestions or his blindness to her emotional expressions.
Along with a team of mathematicians, Gottman has developed what he calls bilinear influence functions. These describe a person's ability to affect his or her spouse's mood, a kind of emotional contagion. Good couples routinely influence each other's moods, in a positive direction.
Some couples, are "volatile"—they often unleash anger at one another but they offset that anger with even larger doses of warm feelings. Despite the volatility, such couples tend to be stable and successful. They not only influence each other with anger but also with affection.
Another critical dimension is the attempt to turn a difficult conversation in a positive direction—what Gottman calls repair attempts. These typically include jokes, soothing comments or changing the subject when things are too hot. Some couples, on the other hand, are skilled at "damping" conversations—they add more negative fuel to the fire. They may make hurtful comments even when their partner is clearly trying to be positive.
In the mathematics of marriage, certain expressions of emotion carry a disproportionate amount of emotional weight. Expressions of contempt, Gottman has found, register at -4. Displays of disgust each count for three points in the negative column. Whining comes in at –1. On the other hand, a display of affection—a smile of sympathy, a touch—registers 4 on the plus side.
The good news is that you don't have to be a math whiz to have a happy marriage, and there's no one right answer. Every couple is free to write their own positive equation.
Creative license
Oh man!
Alright it seems to me the most creative moments I have come at the most inopportune moments like last night in the middles of institue but I though I would share. First picture a tall square room with celing lights only all walls are white and clean. Hanging from the ceiling are (beautiful hand crafed by yours truly) are broken glass mosaic balls reflected the light from the ceiling. They reflect lights and all of the fabulous smiles and laughter. The tables are Rectangles circles and Square all with a glass top. Some have table cloths but the important ones have black and white phots with little circle mirrors and peacock feathers!!! The colors of the wedding are teal charcoal and white with accents of silver.
I think a creative outlet is need for everyone. Mine seems to be showing up everywhere its probably time I did something with it.
Places my Doodles are showing up on
napkins
hand outs
stickie notes
meeting adgendas
my sketch book
my calendar
the back of pro fromas
hahah basically I can get my hands on it seems. I will start to put it to use soon. Other wise I think I might Loose my touch... P.s I am starting to pick photography... hopefully there will soon be evidence on the blog:)
Alright it seems to me the most creative moments I have come at the most inopportune moments like last night in the middles of institue but I though I would share. First picture a tall square room with celing lights only all walls are white and clean. Hanging from the ceiling are (beautiful hand crafed by yours truly) are broken glass mosaic balls reflected the light from the ceiling. They reflect lights and all of the fabulous smiles and laughter. The tables are Rectangles circles and Square all with a glass top. Some have table cloths but the important ones have black and white phots with little circle mirrors and peacock feathers!!! The colors of the wedding are teal charcoal and white with accents of silver.
I think a creative outlet is need for everyone. Mine seems to be showing up everywhere its probably time I did something with it.
Places my Doodles are showing up on
napkins
hand outs
stickie notes
meeting adgendas
my sketch book
my calendar
the back of pro fromas
hahah basically I can get my hands on it seems. I will start to put it to use soon. Other wise I think I might Loose my touch... P.s I am starting to pick photography... hopefully there will soon be evidence on the blog:)
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