bad decisions and romanticizing

So my decision making abilities today have been completely hindered. I think the only choice I made that didn't backfire was to give advice to someone who is having relationship issues.. but even then that could be dangerous, since I am not so hot on them myself.  I really should be doing the hours of homework I have, but I needed a break and needed to spill out the contents of my mind so I can really focus on my homework. I leave for europe in a week and some. I can't believe school is starting I feel like this year has been mushed together and there has been no sense of ending to anything I have been done been doing its all fuzzy. Haha I bet that makes no sense but its how I feel honestly.

So lately...

I keep thinking about the scene from you've got mail where meg ryan is sending off her email to tom hanks and she describes the experience and its lovely. She sneaks off to check her mail and she hears those " three little words... you've got mail.. I hear nothing but the beat of my own heart" and I completely understand the feeling the excitement over something so little yet it makes the world of difference.








I get that way when I smell the rain, my heart slowly begins to beat faster... I cant help myself I start to smile and Frank Sinatra's the way you look tonight starts to play and the band in my head meets up with dance director and I want to run outside soak myself in the falling rain and just twirl in circles with my face to sky singing in my head that first line ... someday when I am awfully low when the world is cold I will feel a glow just thinking of you and the way you look tonight.











sitting in a huge down comfort blanket staring into a fire, knowing perfectly well I will be broiling in 5 minutes and no longer want to sit so close to it and yet I will back away still entranced by the ways the flames dance over the logs over and over again. haha ( the cat is me) sometimes I want nothing to do with the fire but its warmth while I am reading a book that has me so wrapped up in it I dont realize until its to late and my toes are a little too hot!

I am in a place now where the trees change color and the weather cools down, and cant help but think big leaf piles, reds oranges yellows the sound of aspens in the fall breeze which is bringing more than the leaves from the trees but another season with it.





Wow, I got a little carried away. Well, thank you to the void that I am sending this into. I appreciate that I can hit publish and my thought are released from me and I can move on to other things. If your reading this I hope you enjoy romanticizing in your own way and escaping your day for a moment or two.

off to homework and potentially sleep:)