a list of my thoughts this week

I wont number them or bullet point these since they revolve around each other,
 I haven't posted about europe because it reminds me of things I couldn't fix, things that wont change, and feelings that wont go away.
My love for Europe and the things I learned there are more important in my life than ever. I find myself thinking about escaping everyday back to austria and the lake I dont know the name of.

 I feel like there is so much to learn there and I should have stayed months rather than days.
There are songs on my ipod that have so much resemblance to my life I am worried I am candid camera somewhere....

what do you want- jerrod neiman

sara barelies whole album

everybody- ingrid michealson

dont you wanna stay- jason aldean and kelly clarkson

and many others...

I finally gave in and watched a chick flick again and made it all the way through even though it hurts but if I dont start now, I wont start ever...

Its raining here, I haven't been home in a year or so when it has really rained. I adore it. I  mean truly adore it. I went outside tonight in my new Dr. Seuss rain boots. I put my face to the sky and oddly instead of singing the way you look tonight. I began to sing one of those songs I mentioned earlier. Oh so very odd for me.
 Those feelings I talked about earlier are matched with new ones I am not sure what to think of exactly:) They are good but whether they last .... guess you have to continue reading and find out.

I miss this place and the people who are there

I love my parents they are the best, and even though I haven't really told them how  I have been feeling other than info about my job not that I have told ANYONE how I am really feeling but... they are patient kind and loving<3